Some Movement

This morning I received my first call regarding my security clearance. It came from an investigator who is focusing on my time in another city. I'm starting to realize that getting a security clearance is a difficult process not only because you have to provide exceedingly detailed information on friends, contacts, places lived and employment; but also because you are forced to examine your life for all your misdeeds and missteps. It's not pleasant to think about things you might have done that you're not proud of and then have to disclose those deeds to a complete stranger. All of which might result in you not getting a clearance.

I am now going through my head and asking myself, "Did the neighbors across the street like me?" "Did that one partner I worked for have a grudge that could torpedo this?" "How were my performance reviews?" I don't think I have to really worry about this. I think I have led a decent life. Based on the fact I never missed a bonus, I have to think my work product was okay and that I was liked. I'm still in touch with most of my neighbors in Charlotte (which is weird, since I know none of my actual neighbors here in Atlanta). But you never know.

I think this might actually be worse than the waiting. Now I know there is some progress, but I have no control or knowledge of what's being asked or what's being said about me.